My cousin Sarah and I FINALLY had a chance to catch up today. We met up at Hope and Union, which is the cutest little coffee shop downtown. Sarah is leaving for Uganda tomorrow and so after getting some caffeine we went shopping for the Children’s ministry there. I’ll tell you what, you can tell that we are cousins… we both found out today we have yet another thing in common- We both love Dicks! Dick’s Sporting Good’s that is, it’s my favorite sports store. (HAHA ok immature joke) Anyways, we went there to pick up some soccer balls for the Ugandan kids. We then went to eat a yummy hippie lunch on James Island. I can’t remember the name of the place… but it’s definitely one of those places I would never walk in by myself… the outside looks a little sketchy, but the food is AMAZING. Just goes to show, you can’t judge a book by its cover. 

Spending time with my cousin Sarah is always refreshing to the soul. It’s amazing to me how we never really had much of a relationship until I moved here, but 9 months later she’s like my sister. We grew up in different states, had very different family lives and yet we struggle with many of the same issues and are alike in so many ways.  God totally orchestrated that one.  

This summer will be the last relaxing time I will have before I go back to Maine and bust out an obscene amount of credits in a short amount of time to graduate. Because of this I’ve set a few goals for myself;

1.)    Blogging. Blogging everyday. This will be hard for me, but I’m up for the challenge. Even if it’s just a short blog about my trip to Wal-Mart that day, (or the 2 trips to Wal-Mart with me) it doesn’t matter. I just need the time to reflect on my day and hold myself to some sort of accountability that I’ve accomplished something cool that day.

2.)    The second goal is doing something I’ve never done before. I know this is so cliché, but life is way too short. And I don’t mean doing something for just myself everyday, but doing something new that glorifies God everyday. It can be anything from going to a new coffee shop and reading the bible, to finding new Christian music artists or journaling in a new place… just something. I want to get the most out of beautiful Charleston right now. Hey, at least it will give me something to blog about right?!

3.)    To let the Lord break down my walls. I think this scares me, but I need to remind myself daily that the Lord won’t hurt me.

4.)    Keep my room completely clean. Clothes on hangers, no excuses that I don’t have a dresser right now. They can at least be folded neatly. And just for the record I am laying on a made bed right now and in a clean room! Plus one for me :)

5.)    To let myself be sad. I have so much pride around this issue, but I think I’m getting better at it. I hate to tell people when they’ve hurt me, yet alone show any emotion about it. My pride would rather me go on letting everyone think I’m just fine and dandy. I want to learn that it’s ok to be sad and to cry… It’s ok to let people know that I am hurting. However, also to realize life does go on. These feelings won’t last forever and to continuously remind myself God has an even more amazing plan than I ever could for myself. I want to just enjoy the closeness that God has to offer in my time of sorrow.

6.)    Forgiveness; to everyone and everything. It’s time to let a few things go.

7.)    My 6th goal is HUGE for me… as I think it is a challenge for many women. To realize no matter how hard you try, how hard you push and pry… you can’t change anyone. It’s called nagging girls, we all just need to drop it and accept, or move on.

8.)    Not to waste so much time on facebook stalking and get out and explore! People don’t want a play-by-play of my day. :) 99.9% of the time this is what my day is like;

-8:08am Wake up, eat cheerio’s… ok I already lied. More like 10am.

-Check my facebook account, nope no messages.

-10:30 have a half hour conversation with myself, debating whether I want to go to the gym now, or wait till later. Do I want to see Cliff and Jamie today? No, I’ll wait till 7. If I wait till 7pm I can tan. But that’s a horrible reason, I shouldn’t tan anyway- tanning causes skin cancer. Also, if I wait till later I might get lazy and not go.

-11:45 The decision to go to the gym now or later becomes too hard, so I decide to go on facebook.

 Ok, I have to end it there. I am way to embarrassed… yes these really are my day-to-day conversations with myself and going on facebook to distract me is how I always solve my problems. I guess I think by some miracle someone’s status will give me the answer I am looking for. Unfortunately it never does. ** Disclaimer** This is not ALWAYS how my day goes, sometimes I work and my decision process is altered.

 9.)    Pray for others more. It really does pay off. I’ve been praying for my mom lately and her relationship with the Lord. The other day she whipped out a bible verse and gave me some great advice. At that moment I realized God was using me as a tool and answering my prayers. What an amazing gift to receive from God.

10.) Matthew 22:37

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.

My last and more important goal for myself is to have Jesus at the tip of my tongue everyday. To remember to that he is the reason I wake up in the morning, he keeps me going, and he deserves all the glory.

***There! Here are my 10 goals, written out, posted in a blog… no excuses. I’ll keep ya’ll updated on my progess! Now I have to check my messages on facebook… Just kidding! Okay- maybe not… baby steps, right?!? :)***